Abby LeFebre – 2013 Guatemala experience

Good-morning everyone, my name is Abby LeFebre. I am a nurse at Mayo and a member of a very small Methodist church in Eyota, MN. I have never been on any type of mission trip before. My church is too small to support their own trip, but I have always been interested in them. I didn’t really know what to expect from this trip other than what I assumed would be a great experience. I had the pleasure of going on this trip with two coworkers. Other than that I was acquaintances with everyone else from meetings and the fundraiser auction. I have to say that we are no longer strangers, we are sisters, brothers, and friends. This trip turned out to be incredible and life changing for me. It is hard to put my experience into words because it was so emotional. I feel sad, mad, happy, guilty, and changed. I went on this trip to try to change someone’s life for the better and ended up getting a change for myself. Once in Guatemala I was jaw-droppingly shocked that the life there could be so black and white different than life here. Seeing first hand in the clinic that someone my age, 23, with 3 kids and a very hard life. Which I could see from the wrinkles in her face, dirt and dust on her skin, and odorous clothing. She ended up having parasites in her intestines because the water isn’t clean. How did I get so lucky to be born in the US? Where I take things like that for granted. Seeing child after child after child who was severely malnourished and dehydrated. The kids were all so small. I worked in triage for the medical team, and I was always shocked and saddened when they would tell me their age because I would have guessed they were 3-4 years younger. Each day we set up clinic we ended up not having enough time to see all the patients. Which, of course, made me very frustrated and sad. Each night at Camp Lamoa we would go around the table and share an experience or favorite part of the day. I had shared my frustrations, as I am sure many others did too, with Kelly our team leader. On Friday night she shared this story with us,

A young girl was walking along a beach upon which thousands of starfish had been washed up during a terrible storm. When she came to each starfish, she would pick it up, and throw it back into the ocean. People watched her with amusement.
She had been doing this for some time when a man approached her and said, “Little girl, why are you doing this? Look at this beach! You can’t save all these starfish. You can’t begin to make a difference!” The girl seemed crushed, suddenly deflated. But after a few moments, she bent down, picked up another starfish, and hurled it as far as she could into the ocean. Then she looked up at the man and replied, “Well, I made a difference to that one!” The old man looked at the girl inquisitively and thought about what she had done and inspired, he joined the little girl in throwing starfish back into the sea. Soon others joined, and all the starfish were saved.

Thank you to all of our friends and family for supporting us on this life-changing journey. I now know that it is through acts of giving that we truly receive. The book of John says, “Dear children let us not love with our words or tongue, but with actions and truth.” Thank you again and God Bless.

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‘Finding Time for God’

I woke up in my hotel in Boston at 3:30 AM this morning. I found myself thinking about what’s happened in my life over the last four months concerning the possibility of building a hospital in Guatemala. Life has been so incredibly busy over the last few weeks, and I haven’t taken the time to really connect with God. I reached out to God… and God was there. I found myself thinking about the wonder of that simple statement, ‘God was there’.
The song was the result. Why is it so hard to just find the time to spend with God?

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

‘Finding Time for God’

When I, think ’bout, what God has done for me
I feel a smile spread through my being as big as it can be
Just the, thought that, God loves me, takes the time
To nurture me and guide me, a miracle, sublime

I feel, secure, at home where e’re I’m at
Nothing, on earth, feels quite the same as that
How great, Thou art, words so very true
My life, so changed, special and brand-new

You keep changing me and molding me
In ways I can’t describe
When I take time to seek You out, I find You by my side
I feel your presence filling me, electric now, recharging me
It feels so wonderful, and yet I find that I

Let the busyness of life each day,
Consume my time, pull me away
Why’s it so hard, to stay focused on You?
I wander and I slowly plod,
When I should run straight to You, God
I’m Yours, and always will be, God, it’s true
I belong to You

When I, think ’bout, what God has done for me
I feel a smile spread through my being as big as it can be
Just the, thought that, God loves me, takes the time
To nurture me and guide me, a miracle, sublime

I feel, secure, at home where e’re I’m at
Nothing, on earth, feels quite the same as that
How great, Thou art, words so very true
My life, so changed, special and brand-new

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.

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‘Metamorphosis’

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

John

‘Metamorphosis’

Feed my soul, O God, with Your amazing love
Quench the hunger that’s my need to feel You near
Be the purpose of each moment that I live
Be my song, the words that fill my ears

Without You, I am empty, a tool that can’t be used
Filled with Your presence, anything is possible
I long to feel each day, that thrilling moment when I find I’m one with you,
My cup of joy is overflowing, my heart is truly full
Can’t find the words to help describe how much my life has changed
Since I found my new self, waiting there, on the pathway back to You

Feed my soul, O God, with Your amazing love
Quench the hunger that’s my need to feel You near
Be the purpose of each moment that I live
Be my song, the words that fill my ears

With the knowledge of Your love for me
Came complete metamorphosis
In a moment, my whole life had changed, altered nothing less
A lonely caterpillar, now an instant butterfly
Forever changed, transformed, in the blinking of an eye

Feed my soul, O God, with Your amazing love
Quench the hunger that’s my need to feel You near
Be the purpose of each moment that I live
Be my song, the words that fill my ears

Written on or about March 9, 2012.

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‘Job Prayer’

Earlier this year, during Lent, I led a spiritual writing workshop weekly at my church. I used the book

    40 Days of Praying with My Pen

by Rachel G Hackenberg.
Following is a quote from the reading for day five. “There are days, years, and seasons sometimes, when our humanity is evident and tangible in very painful ways. Let your written prayer give voice to the aches of your body, whether are your issues are of physical health or spiritual fatigue.”. I wrote what you read below, as the response to that call.

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

John

‘Job Prayer’
My job remains an ongoing ache,
Many of the days when I don’t think I can take
Another second, knowing all the other ways, I could be spending my time
Serving You, maybe making rhymes
That the world may never hear

My company works hard to be, the best at what they do
Healing people of disease, broken bodies, broken dreams
That they may not live to fulfill

At times, it’s hard to comprehend
The chains of meetings without end
Do make a difference, lead to change
Slowly alter, rearrange
The processes and procedures that we use

To heal with miracles, the ones
The mothers, daughters, husbands, sons
Who visit with hopes of being saved
Does my work really make
A difference? And what would it take
For me to know, deep in my heart
That all these hours are truly a part
Of the work that you want me to do

How do I find you, God, in each long weary day?
How can I change the empty way,
I feel as I take the path to work each morning

You ask us to pray unceasingly
But I forget continually
If I’d only stop for a word with You
When I am about to have to do
A task that seems so meaningless

Is it time for a change? I do not know
What would I do, where would I go?
Is my faith strong enough, are you asking me
To make a change, for my whole family?
Is now the time, is this the place?
I hear your call, I could never erase
The feelings, sensations of those times when
I can feel with my body, your presence again

I’m asking you, Lord, which road I should take?
Guide me Lord through every decision I make
Why faith is strong, I trust in You
Please show me your path, I know you’ll help me through
Every day. Amen.

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.
Written on or about March 5, 2012.

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‘Our God’

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life today and always!

John

‘Our God’

Our God won’t fit in a box, though we humans do certainly try
As soon as we start, to put bounds around God, our reasoning fails, and then we wonder why
Something happens that challenges, all we think we know,
The foundation crumbles, and cracks start to show
In our churches, our faith, and our lives

God is love, God’s greater than,
Our wildest dreams, our biggest plans
Far beyond the breadth of our imaginations
God is love, God works through us
If we’ll just follow, if we’ll just trust
God will fill the world with peace and hope, God will mend our warring nations
In God, we ‘re one, why can’t we see,
God gave us life, then set us free
But we can’t picture, working altogether,
But God can, and will forever

Our God can be hard to explain, words don’t exist, to truly describe
Our God belongs to all people, all nations, not one village, one town, or one tribe
God commands us to love one another each day
Just as we are to love God in every way
Love your enemies too, God will work through you
In our churches, our faith, and our lives.

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.
Written on or around March 4, 2012.

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‘Help Me With My Son, John Edmund’

This rhyming prayer was written in March. At that time, as well as only yesterday, my relationship with my son wasn’t going the way I really want it to. He’s 12 now, and the life of a middle schooler can be rough. At this age, kids can tease each other mercilessly. But if your dad joins in, oblivious to the fact that this is bothering you, in front of your friends, it makes it 10 times worse. I am sorry for what happened yesterday afternoon, my son, I was only trying to have fun. I hurt you, but that is never my true intent. I love you, and always will!

Dad

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

‘Help Me With My Son, John Edmund’

Lord, my relationship with my son, is tempestuous most times.
I worry he’s not learning, the skills that he’ll need, to navigate through his life.
My failure to make good choices, back in the ‘bad old days’
Pushes me to compel him, sometimes screaming and yelling, to follow the straight and narrow way.
Help me to accept, Lord, help me to embrace, the wonder that is my son.
A gift from You, when I was convinced, I didn’t deserve, to ever have one.
Help me to remember, that he’s just a child, a bright and marvelous boy
Help me remember that I need to teach him, not only the rules, but how to find the joy,
That life in You can offer, marvels beyond compare
Help me be a key part, curb my anger when I start, to get so frustrated, thinking he doesn’t care.
Help me to teach the importance, of a life spent in service to You
Help me to teach him that relationships, are far more important than money and goods
Help me to show him, that I love him, this natural born leader You sent
Help me live out this prayer, while I still can be there
To love, to shelter, to teach
Help me maximize every minute, together, all of the time we will spend
Just as You do too and this always is true
I’ll love him forever. Amen.

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.

Written on or around March 1, 2012

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‘Yours’

Yesterday was another of those days, where very early in the morning, I realize once again, to whom I belong. I belong to God, maker of all creation. My heart, my soul and every piece of my fabric, are God’s and God’s alone. What things can I do today to show the world that fact? This song is one of those ways for me.

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

John

‘Yours’

Yours is the path, I’ll walk today
Yours are the words I will say
Yours are the actions, that I will do
While they’re yours by default, I will freely choose to
Deliberately and consciously, live out these words
In a way that will show I am Yours
Today and tomorrow, always and forever
God, to serve You, is what I’m living for

When I tell the world, that I follow You
What does that really mean?
I’ve no mark, no degree, no tattoo up on me
Nothing at all that can clearly be seen
How can I show the world
That I love you, God, and would
Gladly give all that I am
In Your service, I want to live
All I have, joyfully give
Everything, my God, is Yours

Yours is the path, I’ll walk today
Yours are the words I will say
Yours are the actions that I will do
While they’re yours by default, I will freely choose to
Deliberately and consciously, live out these words
In a way that will show I am Yours
Today and tomorrow, always and forever
God, to serve You, is what I’m living for

When they ask me how, I know you exist
How can I ever explain?
You saved me, made me whole, patched up my hurting soul
Taking away, my fiercest pain
Having been through all that
Can’t imagine where I’d be at
If God, isn’t, wasn’t, won’t be
You exist, I’ll testify
I’m proof, look me in the eye
Every thing, my God, is Yours!

Yours is the path, I’ll walk today
Yours are the words I will say
Yours are the actions that I will do
While they’re yours by default, I will freely choose to
Deliberately and consciously, live out these words
In a way that will show I am Yours Today and tomorrow, always and forever
God, to serve You, is what I’m living for

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.

June 28, 2012

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‘How Does God Keep So Still?”

Psalm 46:10
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

1 Corinthians 13:1
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. (New International Version ©1984)

The idea for this song came from the verses above. I wrote the first line or so, then everything fell in place after that. Being still, is the primary way that I start the process of getting in touch with God. My brain and my body, however, always seem to have a million things going on and get in the way of the process. Especially at those times when we’re about to make a really bad decision, I believe God is out there shouting at us to get our attention, but it rarely happens. As we sometimes do with our friends and family, we’ve already tuned God out but it’s so easy to look at it from the standpoint that God is ‘keeping still’ when it was really us not paying attention or not asking for God’s guidance.

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

John

‘How Does God Keep So Still?’

Be still, my clanging gong of a body
God is always quite near
If you’re quiet enough, there’s a good possibility
You might actually hear
God’s voice as it speaks to you,
Comforts you through and through,
Or guides you along life’s short path
Consider the things you do,
Seen from God’s point of view
You could get lucky and hear God’s great laugh
Or is this a day when God nervously watches,
Hands tied by God’s gift of free will
As we make a decision that will alter our lives,
Bringing pain or disaster then ‘How does God keep so still?’

Await my slumbering, tired, weary body
Open your eyes come and see
That’s trying to show you, those who need help
God’s telling you, you might actually be
God’s words and voice on this day
Helping someone to find their way
Into God’s welcoming arms
Consider the things you do
Seen from God’s point of view
You could get lucky and see God’s great smile
Or is this a day when God sadly must turn his head
Hands tied by God’s gift of free will
As we keep God hidden inside
Hoarding love as our own
Leave them empty and yearning, then ‘How does God keep so still?’

Arise, my selfish, weak, lazy body
Get up, find something to do
Stop, look and listen,
God’s work is waiting
God’s worker is actually you
Be God’s hands and feet to someone
Help them get something done
They couldn’t do on their own
Consider the things you do
Seen from God’s point of view
You could get lucky and feel God’s great touch
Or is this a day when God’s heart will be broken
Hands tied by the gift of free will
As we walk past that person
Looking out for ourselves
Leave them hurting and needy, then ‘How does God keep so still?’

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.
Written on or about March 8, 2012.

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‘Turn Around’

Last Sunday my family and I had the pleasure of attending the outdoor service of Bethlehem Lanesboro Lutheran Church at the home of Kim and Jim Wagner of Lanesboro, MN. We were there for the commissioning of a mission team that John Edmund, my son, left with shortly after the service.
That team, composed of 13 mid-high youth and their chaperones, is going to Minneapolis, to provide service urban homeless shelter for the first five days of this week. The service was awesome, the message clear and powerful. The setting was beautiful, highlighted by watching an eastern bluebird fly back and forth from the top of the house to the antenna and then out over the yard. The bulletin was impressive, containing a great deal of interesting and pertinent background information as well as all the necessary content to make a first time visitor such as myself, feel as if I were a full participant in the service. Pastor Kerry Eversole included lots of music, always a bright spot for me. As he was speaking, the words ‘turn around’ came into my brain and stuck there. This song is the result.
Appropriately, as I was writing it, Pastor Kerry began to speak about Charles Albert Tindley, a famous East Coast preacher who is credited with being one of the creators of gospel music. You can read more about him here..

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

John

‘Turn Around’

Turn Around
How many times did you call?
Turn Around
How many places did you follow me to?
Turn Around
Places I never should’ve found
Turn Around
Myself in at all

Turn Around
You called with so many voices
Turn Around
In failure, I ignored every one
Turn Around
I depended on me, and I just couldn’t see
Turn Around
That when all was finished, said and done

Turn Around
That only you could help me
Turn Around
That only you could heal
Turn Around
The pain that burned deep down inside
Turn Around
The depths of my very soul

Turn Around
Only you could help me
Turn Around
Only you could heal
Turn Around
Only you could fix my broken spirit
Turn Around
Only you could make me whole

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.
Written 6/24/2012

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‘Questions?’

Jan and I celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary on Monday. Altogether we’ve spent 18 1/2 years in each others company. I know it sounds cliché but our marriage really is getting stronger with the years. Together we’re growing in faith and attempting to listen to God and do God’s will as we see it. Jan is my partner, my friend, my love, and I could do none of the things I do without her and her support. I love you, Jan, the first lines of this song were prompted by thoughts of you.

May you feel and recognize God’s hand moving in your life, today and always!

John

‘Questions?’
What if angels don’t have wings?
And they look like you and me?
I think some of them do
And have throughout eternity
I think we call them other names
I think yours will not likely be
The same as mine, God sends them
To each person specially

What if heaven’s not a place we go
When our time on earth is through?
What if it is knowing God exists
And that God loves us too?
What if working for God anytime
Is as good as it’s going to get?
What course of action would you take
What would you do next?

What if God’s not up in heaven
But spends each moment with us?
Each day God’s ever present
On the ocean, mountain, bus
What if heaven is being with God
No matter where we’re at?
What if we are living there right now?
Could we handle that?

What if Jesus came to save us
With his life and not his death?
That living his Commandments
During each and every breath
What if loving one another,
And loving ourselves too
Was the reason God created us
And is all that we’re to do?

Copyright 2012. John Lage, Jr. All rights reserved.

February 24, 2012 and June 22, 2012

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